How frustrating things can be...
In the past four months or so, my sex drive has basically tripled. My sex life, on the other hand, is flatlining. Sexual deprivation is not my friend. Everyone around me seems to have their healthy share. Even those who don't consider themselves a sexual being as I do, are getting far more action. I want to experiment. I want to explore. I want the intimacy. The thrill. I want to unleash the primal instinct that stirs inside. That high that no drug can provide. I want it all, and it's so frustrating. Because in the meantime, I'm only getting older, and more pathetic by the minute. Soon, I will be the most unexperienced 30-year-old in the history of the world. And that makes me feel like utter shit. A fucking loser.
How hard does it have to be to find someone attractive who enjoys sex as much as I do? I just don't understand...
***And by the way, I recently stopped giving a shit how ridiculous I might be sounding. I'm not going to tone down my thoughts anymore... it's one of my resolutions this year. I'm tired of hiding in the shadows.
I'm sure there are women out there who enjoy sex as much as you do. Frankly, I can't really think of any... but I'll let you know if I find one.
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