Mix CD #15

The most recent addition in my library of custom mixes (once again, in order):

• "Don't Stop" - Brazilian Girls
• "Just Like You" - Three Days Grace
• "Plug It In" - Basement Jaxx (featuring J.C. Chasez)
• "SloLove" - Janet Jackson
• "Loro" - Pinback
• "Redundant" - Green Day
• "Shut Yo Face (Uncle Fucka)" - Trick Daddy (featuring Trina & Tre +6)
• "I Get Around" - Tupac Shakur
• "Technologic" - Daft Punk
• "This Lull-A-Bye" - Esthero
• "A Mile Away" - J Minus
• "All Night Long" - Boyz II Men
• "Black Again" - Stone Temple Pilots
• "Pussy" - Brazilian Girls
• "Super Strut" - Deodato

Short Takes # 2

More random shit. I've been feeling quite lazy lately as far as sentence structuring is concerned. Can you tell?

• Looking forward to the upcoming DVD release of Revenge Of The Sith. Can't wait to hear those sabers vibrating through my DTS system. :)
• In a couple weeks I'll be watching Mr. McCartney in person for the first time. Or, as I like to refer to him, The Paul. It's an unreal feeling to think ahead to this concert. I'm so excited for it.
• Speaking of concerts, I'll be missing out on the Foo Fighters/Weezer show I'd love to see. :( But I should be able to at least squeeze out tickets to see Fiona Apple late next month. We'll see about that. I had to miss seeing Imogen Heap last week too. I'm bummed...
• But I've been meeting some cool people from myspace recently. And I'm beginning to get a network of friends going in real life as well. That's something I could really use again for a change. Friends. I've almost forgotten what they're like.
• Work is slowly ascending. I get my first full paycheck on Friday. And now that I've paid off the majority of my bills (with the last paycheck), I'll be doing much better on the money front. It's about time.
• I sit next to this slightly older woman who is completely hot and nice. We seem to get along well. But she's a co-worker. I have a rule against going there. And she's married. I have a rule against going there as well. But other than those minor issues, I would SO go there, you know?
• I am also allowed to listen to music while I work. I cannot begin to describe how refreshing this is to me. I no longer feel like I'm completely wasting my life in persuit of money. At least now I can "kill two birds with one stone" and spend that time listening to music. If I'm going to be there anyway, I might as well be there lost in a song. I also experimented with tuning into my favorite talk-radio station online. So that's another option I have for my workdays. Seriously comedic thought-provoking shows. Now I can listen to BJ Shea (www.bjaday.com) and Tom Leykis (www.blowmeuptom.com) in their entirity. Something I was never able to do in the past. I'm stoked about that. I've learned so much by listening in the past it's not even funny.
• Having lunch with my Grandma tomorrow @ Golden Phoenix. It's a Chinese place, which I've been really craving lately. I actually put an old german stein on ebay for her this last week. It was my great grandmother's (her mom's) piece that is worth around $500. We'll see how it does. She's selling two of them.
• And I'm finally making it around to going through some old games I have. Yesterday I broke out the SNES (or 'Super Nintendo Entertainment System', for you less knowledgeable of gamer-lingo). I'll be testing out many of the games on my computer's SNES emulator. If they work fine on here, I may sell a few of the physical cartridges to free up more space and make a buck or two in the process. But it'll be hard letting go of some of those games. I love that system. And those games are basically old friends I haven't visited in years.
• Doing better in the female department. Met a couple ladies. Been on a few dates. Things are smoother with Jen. Beginning to carve out some casual relationships with this new confidence I recently found under the couch. I've been sharpening and fine-tuning it a lot lately. Sometimes I surprise myself, and it feels good. Really good, in fact. Just call me the journeyman carver. Then again, I just hope I don't end up as an old man fashioning a kayak out of a log.
• Speaking of artwork, I'm getting more and more serious about carving myself a new body. Or rather, molding the one I have into something nicer. I asked Keely (my roommate) if she would have a problem if I were to put a treadmill in the living room (we have a bit of empty space). She wouldn't have an issue with it, so I may do just that. I could watch the news while I walk a few miles every night. I'm looking forward to putting that plan into action.
• My dad and I helped another guy basically clear out his basement and knock down a couple walls. The guy is going to turn his whole downstairs into a studio where we can all play every weekend (or whenever). We took my drumset up last weekend and set it all up. I put my real cymbals on and took out the electronic ones... they were cutting out a little anyway. Also, my dad's going to buy me a hi-hat stand so I can use my real hi-hats. I'm excited to pick that up this week in time for Sunday, when we go up there next.

Well that's all I can think of right now. I really need to get to sleep. And I have $20 in the bank until Friday. It sucks. But at least I have you guys to complain about it too...

Filmosophy (Vol 1)

American Beauty:

"Remember those posters that said: 'Today is the first day of the rest of your life.'? Well, that's true with every day except one... the day you die."

"My daughter Jane. Only Child. Janie's a pretty typical teenager: angry, insecure, confused. I wish I could tell her that's all going to pass, but I don't want to lie to her."


Garden State:

"You know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of a sudden, even though you have some place where you put your shit, that idea of home is gone. ... You'll see one day when you move out. Just sorta happens one day and it's gone. You feel like you can never get it back. It's like you feel homesick for a place that doesn't even exist. Maybe it's like this rite of passage, you know? You won't ever have that feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself. You know, for your kids. For the family you start. It's like a cycle or something. ... I don't know. But I miss the idea of it, you know? Maybe that's all a family really is. A group of people that miss the same imaginary place."

Sweet November:

"She told me if she couldn't live a normal life... she was determined to live an abnormal one the best way she could."


The Story Of Us:

"Since you'll never really find the answers to the big questions, there's a comfort in knowing the answers to the little ones."

"Love is just lust... in disguise."


Strange Days:

"One man's mundane and desperate existance is another man's Technicolor."

Partial-Sentence Mosaic

You and I. Together forever. Time has no meaning. This is what I desire. With the deepest emotion I may possibly offer. I am speaking to you directly. If never again. May I have this chance? May I only take advantage of this opportunity for once in my life? I love you. With everything that I am, and everything that I could be. I love you and I want only you. You are my atmosphere. The thought of you keeps me safe, protecting me from the evil outside of us. We were destined to spend eternity together. Can't you see that? Isn't it obvious enough yet? Someone has to protect the known universe from lonliness. It became our job. I volunteered us. Oops... my bad. But we will show them. The greatest pair to ever float through existance. Us. We will show them, and we will live on.

Something I've never told you... I feel you in me. In fact, forget that. I feel.

And not only do I feel, now I desire as well. What do I desire, you may ask? You of course. I may not know you. I may have never met you. But I want you. .........




So where are you?

Ascending Rant

Where to start? Where to show up, where to begin? Just finished watching a movie I love, and I'm feeling high. (How nice it would be to meet someone Garden State style.) I might have been downtown watching Imogen in person tonight, but I'm not. Sucks being completely broke. Got a note from the main office saying that I need to pay rent or I might get evicted soon. I do get paid tomorrow, but the money is still not in my account. I really hate to risk bouncing a check, but I dropped the rent check off right away and left a message with the manager explaining that I get paid tomorrow, etc. I don't enjoy being in debt.

I finally took my headphones to work this morning. Aside from the dreaded hour-plus "phonetime", my weekdays just got much more bearable. Now I can listen to full albums while doing the mindless work that owns me. Today I listened to some Coldplay, McCartney, Astrud, Rembrandts & Mono. Nobody cares. Looking forward to pulling out my music each day from now on though...

Also talked to a guy who I kinda know online, and he lives in the area too. We might get together and party a bit with some of his friends. You never know you who you might meet... that's the true magic of parties. I figured that out quickly, and I don't even get invited to many of them. But somehow that magic is usually there, and it sounds like a hella goodtime, especially after watching that great scene again in the movie. It's really funny how many of my best memories - hanging with friends, feeling that belonging, reminiscing possibilities of hooking up with a beautiful stranger - are from the few parties I've experienced for myself. I'm so looking forward to having the chance to go to more.

What else?

I've been a little bummed lately. Depressed. Flustered. I don't know exactly why, but I know the lack of money is certainly contributing. Confusion in the world of women? Perhaps. Feeling a bit friendless too. I do have friends, but they're mostly in other states and/or countries. And many of them I've been out of touch with.

... I suppose I feel there are many places to fly, but I have no money for a plane ticket.

Rock Mix

On Saturday I made myself a mix CD of rock stuff. These are songs that don't just have cool riffs in them... they actually rock my socks off! I had to cut a few contenders out of the list unfortunately, due to storage limits. But I ended up with a choice track-list (in the following order). Check any of these out if you're in the mood for some hard rock:

• "You Think I Ain't Worth A Dollar, But I Feel Like A Millionaire" - Queens Of The Stone Age
• "What If" - Creed
• "High" - Jimmie's Chicken Shack
• "Push It" - Static-X
• "When Worlds Collide" - Powerman 5000
• "Nothing Special" - Local H
• "Biggest And The Best" - Clawfinger
• "My Hero" - Foo Fighters
• "All In The Suit That You Wear" - Stone Temple Pilots
• "My Own Summer (Shove It)" - Deftones
• "Droppin' Plates" - Disturbed
• "Bodies" - Drowning Pool
• "Posthuman" - Marilyn Manson
• "Reload" - Rob Zombie
• "Meant To Live" - Switchfoot
• "Humans Being" - Van Halen
• "Get Free" - The Vines
• "Fuck Me" - Vanilla Ice

Friday Night Light

Friday was a night of new beginnings.

A date for eight downtown in tow, it turns out I was dragged to the outskirts instead. Bellevue yes, Seattle... not quite. The four of us ended up in the lounge of a random chinese food place. A lounge that just happened to be hosting karaoke night...

To get right to the point, I was on a good three Bacardi-on-the-rocks plus two "Buttery Nipples" buzz. They ended up pulling me up to sing with them. We first did a horrible but highly entertaining rendition of "The Bad Touch" by Bloodhound Gang. I felt I had to pick up a lot of the slack as far as the lyrics went. And having lost a few brain cells moments earlier, I admit to not standing up to the quality of my typical performances in my car. Nevertheless, it was very interesting. Later in the evening, I found myself even dancing and socializing with the other drunk locals. We even went up and sang "Across The Universe". If you don't know the song, I feel bad for you. Either the John Lennon or Fiona Apple version... take your pick. Do yourself a favor and listen to it right now.

I didn't have to drive at all, so I was able to let loose most of the night. And even better, I didn't have to pay for anything. All drinks were bought for me. :) In the process, it seems as though I may have made three new friends. I have a feeling we'll all be going out again soon...