Wednesday, December 31, 2014

2014 In Review

Well, 2014 has come to a close. It was an eventful year. Some ups, some downs... but progress nonetheless. I was able to finally wipe some items off of my bucket list this year. Here are some of my highlights of 2014:

  • The Seattle Seahawks won Super Bowl 48! They became World Champions for the first time by crushing the Denver Broncos 43-8! It's been so great for Seattle and the Pacific Northwest, and the Hawks are going into the playoffs this year as well. They've already won their division again and looking to repeat in Super Bowl 49 in a month or so.
  • I started a new job at a hospital. Although I got laid off early this year, I was able to find a new job fairly quickly. I ended up signing on to make about 25% more in wages than I previously did, with a much less stressful role in a setting I'm already familiar with. As I write this nine month later, things are still going great.
  • We reached a financial goal of $20k+ in our emergency/savings fund.
  • I bought my first customized Seahawks jersey. It's a gray jersey with the number 12 and my last name on the back. It rocks! And speaking of jerseys, I also bought the teal Dustin Ackley Mariners jersey I've been wanting for awhile. I was able to wear it to a game in August.
  • We bought our first new car; a hybrid. We've been wanting to break into the more-energy-efficient-vehicle world. We purchased a 2014 Prius C, and we absolutely love it! We even plan on getting a second one in the next year or so, and we don't plan on going back to traditional gas vehicles ever again.
  • I finally underwent a LASIK procedure, and now I don't have to deal with glasses or contacts any longer. My vision quickly went from shitty/gettingworse to 20/15!
  • I dropped a bit of extra weight. For the longest time I've been in the 220-230 pound range. I've changed some eating habits for good, and now I'm steadily in the 205-215 range. Instead of a tight "large", I'm now a comfortable "medium". Now I just need to update my wardrobe, which will be an undertaking in itself.
  • I watched the entire James Bond film collection in chronological order, beginning with "Dr. No" and ending with "Skyfall".
  • I also watched the entire series of "The X-Files", including both films. I'd always meant to see the series in it's entirety, but hadn't found the time to get around to it.
  • I got an Xbox 360. This is my first foray into the world of Microsoft consoles. I picked up a bunch of cheap games at some pawn shops, so those will keep me busy for a long time. Happy gaming to me!
There are already many things on my plate for 2015. I'm prepared for it to be quite a difficult - but productive - journey. I feel ready to continue my progress. 

It's time to see just how deep this rabbit hole goes.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Today's Question

Would you rather have people know all of your flaws, or have people never know you at all?

Saturday, December 13, 2014

The Boy Who Was Always Wrong

I suppose there's a reason why I'm so quiet; a reason why it's so hard for me to speak up and share my opinions without fear of backlash and vitriol quickly returning my way. There must be a reason why I hesitate to express myself; worrying instead of the counter-points and counter-counter-points I will inevitably have to follow up with. For me, it's never been simple.

For as long as I can remember, there's always been something wrong with the way I think. Not so much to me. To me, my thoughts mostly make sense. But throughout my life, I've always been corrected; told I'm wrong in my thinking for one random reason or another. The flaws in my thinking have always been pointed out to me. And since I'm completely incompetent at articulating and explaining the thoughts in my mind, this results in a frustrating and futile outcome every single time I try to share my opinions with someone.

It's no wonder I'm so fucking quiet. It's no wonder I don't talk much to people anymore or openly share my feelings. What's the fucking point when I'm always wrong anyway?

It's no wonder I've always felt so fucking alone and disconnected.