I find it interesting. I always thought I knew how it felt to be in love with someone. Yet I've always found myself wondering how love could be such a one-way street; such an unrequited journey...
Now finally, after almost thirty years, I know what it feels like to be in love with someone.
(This is where I want to stay.)
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Thoughts To Think About # 7
Those who often look the other way contribute to the suffering of the rest of us.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Week Minded
On Monday night we'll dance around
like crazy people in the dark
our living room becomes the club
our underwear the dress code
seducing each other without a word
with only rhythm and melody guiding us
On Tuesday night I'll make a fire
for us to fall asleep by
with quilts and pillows piled high
and soft jazz on the stereo
we'll lose ourselves in the orange glow
while shadows dance around us
On Wednesday, we'll watch a show
or two, or three, or more...
and lie together on the couch
tired, worry-free, and still in love
I'll play with your hair all night
while your head rests on my chest
On Thursday night I'll take you out
for dinner on the town
It won't be fancy; nothing posh
just you and me in a dark booth,
a nice meal and candlelight
(We'll have each other for desert)
On Friday night we'll party on
at bars... with friends or by ourselves
it will be our time to let loose
forget our jobs and other worries
we will see ourselves from a different view
and want each other all over again
On Saturday, we'll sleep till noon
and play in bed like grown children
then we'll fix up our home a bit
cleaning, shopping... the usual chores
but we won't make it very far
we'll be right back playing in bed before long
On Sunday we'll relax all day
take a nice long bubble bath
with only the suds to clothe us
we'll share wine and stare into each other
the ultimate relaxation, in each others' arms
of course, to help prepare us for more dancing the following night...
like crazy people in the dark
our living room becomes the club
our underwear the dress code
seducing each other without a word
with only rhythm and melody guiding us
On Tuesday night I'll make a fire
for us to fall asleep by
with quilts and pillows piled high
and soft jazz on the stereo
we'll lose ourselves in the orange glow
while shadows dance around us
On Wednesday, we'll watch a show
or two, or three, or more...
and lie together on the couch
tired, worry-free, and still in love
I'll play with your hair all night
while your head rests on my chest
On Thursday night I'll take you out
for dinner on the town
It won't be fancy; nothing posh
just you and me in a dark booth,
a nice meal and candlelight
(We'll have each other for desert)
On Friday night we'll party on
at bars... with friends or by ourselves
it will be our time to let loose
forget our jobs and other worries
we will see ourselves from a different view
and want each other all over again
On Saturday, we'll sleep till noon
and play in bed like grown children
then we'll fix up our home a bit
cleaning, shopping... the usual chores
but we won't make it very far
we'll be right back playing in bed before long
On Sunday we'll relax all day
take a nice long bubble bath
with only the suds to clothe us
we'll share wine and stare into each other
the ultimate relaxation, in each others' arms
of course, to help prepare us for more dancing the following night...
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Guitar Fucking
Guitar fucking is a very important thing. All the great guitarists out there do it. In fact, in order to officially reach legendary guitarist status, you must master the art of fucking people hard in their ears... with only your guitar. It's not easy, but it sounds really good.
Angus does it. Jimi did it. Eddie, Stevie Ray, Eric, Chuck, Jimmie, Tommy, Joe, David, Pete and Slash have all had their turns. Hell, even some of the young Johnnys out there - Mayer and Lang most notably - have already displayed audiological guitar intercourse at its finest. It's here to stay for awhile, folks.
It starts off with a good hook. That's the key. You must immediately grab the attention of your crowd and seduce them. That's what being a lead guitarist is all about; making love to your audience with melody. To a great guitarist, there is no greater state of mind. You can tell. A guitar solo is like sex to these people. It just feels so good to them that words will never suffice. Why do you think they always make those funny faces during solos? Did you ever even wonder? I'll tell you why. They make those faces because they are invisibly shooting their melody into your earhole. And all you do is beg for more. That's power at its finest. So if you think about it, it's no wonder why everyone wants to be a rockstar...
Some people will always say that music is just music. I will never agree with that. Because for me, and millions of others out there like me, music can be anything you want. It can be everything.
All you have to do is keep the melody alive.
Angus does it. Jimi did it. Eddie, Stevie Ray, Eric, Chuck, Jimmie, Tommy, Joe, David, Pete and Slash have all had their turns. Hell, even some of the young Johnnys out there - Mayer and Lang most notably - have already displayed audiological guitar intercourse at its finest. It's here to stay for awhile, folks.
It starts off with a good hook. That's the key. You must immediately grab the attention of your crowd and seduce them. That's what being a lead guitarist is all about; making love to your audience with melody. To a great guitarist, there is no greater state of mind. You can tell. A guitar solo is like sex to these people. It just feels so good to them that words will never suffice. Why do you think they always make those funny faces during solos? Did you ever even wonder? I'll tell you why. They make those faces because they are invisibly shooting their melody into your earhole. And all you do is beg for more. That's power at its finest. So if you think about it, it's no wonder why everyone wants to be a rockstar...
Some people will always say that music is just music. I will never agree with that. Because for me, and millions of others out there like me, music can be anything you want. It can be everything.
All you have to do is keep the melody alive.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Training Day
So I was at work today watching an online training video on the functionalities of our new upcoming time-clock system. As the video clips play, they show the instructor's hand working the time-clock unit as she teaches you, step-by-step, how to use its features. So I click on the third video clip and it starts to play. Halfway through, I am distracted and slightly amused by a phone that begins ringing loudly in the background. Nobody answers it of course, because the two people in the room are busy recording a video tutorial segment. Nevertheless, our instructor obviously seems aware of the ringing phone as she's trying to speak. But I figure they're going for a trendy business-live setting, so I don't think much of it. Fine. So onto the next video clip... Halfway through THIS clip, while the instructor is speaking, an announcent goes over the intercom in the background very loudly. I couldn't make out what was said over the intercom, but when it stopped I could clearly hear another voice within the room say, "holy fucking shit."
After giggling to myself for a bit and wondering if I was hearing things, I had to get some of my co-workers to listen to it too. We all giggled about it for a bit before letting our supervisor know.
But yeah, other than that it was just another ordinary day.
After giggling to myself for a bit and wondering if I was hearing things, I had to get some of my co-workers to listen to it too. We all giggled about it for a bit before letting our supervisor know.
But yeah, other than that it was just another ordinary day.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Freedom Only Costs A Buck O' Five
Emmy to Get Creative with Kathy Griffin's Speech
Tue Sep 11, 3:42 PM
Forget the D-list. Kathy Griffin is currently on the Catholic League's [bleep] list.
The Academy of Television Arts & Sciences said Monday that the acceptance speech the My Life on the D-List star made for winning a Creative Arts Primetime Emmy for Outstanding Reality Program will be edited for content when the ceremony airs Saturday on E!
That content being what the Catholic League is calling the redheaded comic's "obscene and blasphemous" remarks upon hoisting her statuette.
"Am I the only Catholic left with a sense of humor?" Griffin responded to E! News Tuesday.
"A lot of people come up here and thank Jesus for this award," the oft-self-deprecating performer said last Saturday at Los Angeles' Shrine Auditorium, where more than 60 less mainstream Emmys were handed out in anticipation of the main event this Sunday.
"I want you to know that no one had less to do with this award than Jesus," the erstwhile Suddenly Susan actress continued. "Suck it, Jesus, this award is my god now!"
In response to the Catholic League's condemnation of Griffin's "vulgar, in-your-face brand of hate speech," and in addition to the assumption that more protests could arise from other religious groups or similarly concerned citizens, the TV Academy has opted to cut Griffin's reverse shout-out.
"Kathy Griffin's offensive remarks will not be part of the E! telecast on Saturday night," a TV Academy spokesperson said in a statement to E! Online. Instead, "there will be an abbreviated version of [her] acceptance speech on the telecast." (E! Online is a division of E! Networks.)
As of Monday, the two-hour Creative Arts Primetime Emmy special, which features highlights of the Carlos Mencia-hosted event that took place Sept. 8, was not finished. So, it's unclear how Griffin, not usually one to worry about offending anybody, will come off.
Meanwhile, the Catholic League has no bone to pick with the Academy, which organization president Bill Donohue said did the right thing. Griffin, however, has some 'splaining to do.
"The Academy of Television Arts & Sciences reacted responsibly to our criticism of Kathy Griffin's verbal assault on 85 percent of the U.S. population," Donohue said in a statement on the group's Website. "The ball is now in Griffin's court. The self-described 'complete militant atheist' needs to make a swift and unequivocal apology to Christians. If she does, she will get this issue behind her.
"If she does not," Donohue said, "she will be remembered as a foulmouthed bigot for the rest of her life."
Which, if nothing else, will provide Griffin with plenty of material for the next season of My Life on the D-List.
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Lessons learned:
1. You have the right to free speech here in the United States of America... just as long as you're a Christian.
2. Telling an invisible man who lives in the sky to "suck it", is considered "hate speech".
3. I am a foulmouthed bigot if I say, "Suck it, Easter Bunny. And you too, Santa! Suck it hard!".
4. People can apparently be a humor-appreciating Catholic, and a 'complete militant atheist' at the same time.
5. Jesus is really good at winning people Emmys and helping football players score touchdowns.
6. Christians and Catholics are so important that we need to capitalize the words each and every time. However, atheists are not special enough to ever have the word 'atheist' capitalized.
7. Catholics have a long upstanding history of not offending people *cough HITLER cough*, and doing what's right. Well... I mean aside from when thousands of their priests are molesting children and getting away with it.
Tue Sep 11, 3:42 PM
Forget the D-list. Kathy Griffin is currently on the Catholic League's [bleep] list.
The Academy of Television Arts & Sciences said Monday that the acceptance speech the My Life on the D-List star made for winning a Creative Arts Primetime Emmy for Outstanding Reality Program will be edited for content when the ceremony airs Saturday on E!
That content being what the Catholic League is calling the redheaded comic's "obscene and blasphemous" remarks upon hoisting her statuette.
"Am I the only Catholic left with a sense of humor?" Griffin responded to E! News Tuesday.
"A lot of people come up here and thank Jesus for this award," the oft-self-deprecating performer said last Saturday at Los Angeles' Shrine Auditorium, where more than 60 less mainstream Emmys were handed out in anticipation of the main event this Sunday.
"I want you to know that no one had less to do with this award than Jesus," the erstwhile Suddenly Susan actress continued. "Suck it, Jesus, this award is my god now!"
In response to the Catholic League's condemnation of Griffin's "vulgar, in-your-face brand of hate speech," and in addition to the assumption that more protests could arise from other religious groups or similarly concerned citizens, the TV Academy has opted to cut Griffin's reverse shout-out.
"Kathy Griffin's offensive remarks will not be part of the E! telecast on Saturday night," a TV Academy spokesperson said in a statement to E! Online. Instead, "there will be an abbreviated version of [her] acceptance speech on the telecast." (E! Online is a division of E! Networks.)
As of Monday, the two-hour Creative Arts Primetime Emmy special, which features highlights of the Carlos Mencia-hosted event that took place Sept. 8, was not finished. So, it's unclear how Griffin, not usually one to worry about offending anybody, will come off.
Meanwhile, the Catholic League has no bone to pick with the Academy, which organization president Bill Donohue said did the right thing. Griffin, however, has some 'splaining to do.
"The Academy of Television Arts & Sciences reacted responsibly to our criticism of Kathy Griffin's verbal assault on 85 percent of the U.S. population," Donohue said in a statement on the group's Website. "The ball is now in Griffin's court. The self-described 'complete militant atheist' needs to make a swift and unequivocal apology to Christians. If she does, she will get this issue behind her.
"If she does not," Donohue said, "she will be remembered as a foulmouthed bigot for the rest of her life."
Which, if nothing else, will provide Griffin with plenty of material for the next season of My Life on the D-List.
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Lessons learned:
1. You have the right to free speech here in the United States of America... just as long as you're a Christian.
2. Telling an invisible man who lives in the sky to "suck it", is considered "hate speech".
3. I am a foulmouthed bigot if I say, "Suck it, Easter Bunny. And you too, Santa! Suck it hard!".
4. People can apparently be a humor-appreciating Catholic, and a 'complete militant atheist' at the same time.
5. Jesus is really good at winning people Emmys and helping football players score touchdowns.
6. Christians and Catholics are so important that we need to capitalize the words each and every time. However, atheists are not special enough to ever have the word 'atheist' capitalized.
7. Catholics have a long upstanding history of not offending people *cough HITLER cough*, and doing what's right. Well... I mean aside from when thousands of their priests are molesting children and getting away with it.
Monday, September 3, 2007
Randomaciousness
I recently told someone close to me the following:
"I'm not afraid of dying, but sometimes I'm afraid of living."
Somehow, after all this time, I find myself in somewhat of a comfort zone. New adventures wait on the horizon. New situations. New emotions...
A new life.
If you knew the thoughts going through my head right now, you might still be surprised by the actions I'm about to take. Sure, that may sound confusing and contradictory, but there's no other way I can think of to describe the unbelievable feeling it is to finally realize something that was only previously a myth; something I could not possibly comprehend with my unwilling, misused brain. I am Alice looking down into the rabbit-hole, trying her hardest to imagine the most realistic outcome. Put more simply, I am about to jump into the rabbit-hole.
It's true, I find a comfort in channeling my all too random thoughts into something while maintaining a somewhat cryptic barrier. I wasn't always this defensive. I picked it up along the way. Sometimes, I may not even be aware I'm doing it. It's just a part of me now. At the same time though, I'm learning new ways to smash these very barriers down. New ways of feeling. New ways of thought.
I like where I am right now. I really do.
"I'm not afraid of dying, but sometimes I'm afraid of living."
Somehow, after all this time, I find myself in somewhat of a comfort zone. New adventures wait on the horizon. New situations. New emotions...
A new life.
If you knew the thoughts going through my head right now, you might still be surprised by the actions I'm about to take. Sure, that may sound confusing and contradictory, but there's no other way I can think of to describe the unbelievable feeling it is to finally realize something that was only previously a myth; something I could not possibly comprehend with my unwilling, misused brain. I am Alice looking down into the rabbit-hole, trying her hardest to imagine the most realistic outcome. Put more simply, I am about to jump into the rabbit-hole.
It's true, I find a comfort in channeling my all too random thoughts into something while maintaining a somewhat cryptic barrier. I wasn't always this defensive. I picked it up along the way. Sometimes, I may not even be aware I'm doing it. It's just a part of me now. At the same time though, I'm learning new ways to smash these very barriers down. New ways of feeling. New ways of thought.
I like where I am right now. I really do.
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