In 3-D

Some of us can only see through a red lens. Some of us can only see through blue. When we learn to see through both, we will finally be able to view and understand our world in new dimensions.

Walking Contradiction

On occasion, I feel like a walking contradiction.

I am an atheist who's intrigued by theology. The idea of time travel fascinates me, but I believe that time itself, as we know it, doesn't actually exist; it's merely a creation of man. I prefer hot weather to cold, regardless of my skin's reaction to too much sun. I throw with my right hand but kick with my left foot. I'm a peace-advocating person at war with the stupidity in the world. I have much to say, but trouble getting the right words out. I love animals, but I have no pets. I support animal rights, but I still crave meat.

The Incomplete Ramblings of a Curious Being

I feel like my home is ablaze. I'm watching the fire swallow everything that I care about. The heat consumes the goodness underneath as smoke covers our future with a blanket of darkness. Is it at all coincidental that as I write this, rain begins to spill over me?

We are told we have freedom. We are told we have liberty. We are told that life is special; that we are each unique and important in this world. We are also told that God is alive and well, and he watches all that we do. He created us, He loves us, He is all forgiving, He is all knowing, all powerful... We are told to make love, not war. We are told that the true enemy is within.

Too many questions. No answers. Why do we go on believing the words of others while never questioning them? Why doesn't God show himself? Why won't he show me that he exists? He knows I am open-minded. He knows I would believe, and would become his most loyal supporter. Why would he deny me the love of a Christian years ago, which no doubt would have cemented my future as a Christian myself? Why does he claim to love me, but threaten to send me - his own child - to Hell... a place of eternal suffering and torture? And what does that say about him as a father?

None of this makes any sense to me. If he knows whether or not I truly believe, what is the point of going to church? If he already knows my thoughts and intentions, why pray? Do I expect him to alter his Divine Plan for me anyway? How arrogant of me... Why would he make my friends want to kill themselves? Why put them through that? His own children? In fact, why create misery or suffering or death or torture or pain in the first place? This is truly the most benevolent being in our universe? I don't get it.

Can someone please explain this to me?

Premonition

I've always had this thought somewhere in the back of my mind. A premonition. There are far too many human buffoons on this planet; far too many morons walking around, oblivious to their environment, caring nothing for their surroundings or their fellow beings. There are far too many brainwashed, closed-minded, materialistic, selfish people.

At some point in the future - maybe soon, maybe not - Earth will find a way to rid itself of this problem. It should come in the form of "natural disaster", or may actually be merely the result of our arrogance and sense of entitlement that comes naturally to us as humans.

Scorched Earth

Something to think about:

Having thousands of scattered organizations struggling to bring light to thousands of scattered issues in this world, is like spraying bullets toward your adversary, assuming a few of them will hit, and hoping some of those will possibly make an impact. It is relatively ineffective.

Now, imagine if we were to concentrate our collective firepower on one target simultaneously; if the benevolent organizations of the world joined forces - even if just for a moment - and supported the same particular cause. In no time at all, we would bring any injustice down. We would be unstoppable. The world would finally see some real positive change.

Are we still so archaic here in 2009 AD? Is it beyond our ability to actually work together for the good of mankind and our surroundings? Am I the only one who even cares anymore? Or are we merely that unorganized?

Polarity

One of the biggest keys to life it seems, is achieving a delicately balanced polarity. This is the fine line between logic and happiness. It is balancing on this line that is the real challenge for me in life. It's difficult to stay positive in such a negative world. It's illogical to be happy with the world today, with so much injustice and misery surrounding us. Seeing the logical side of life - we are born, we live, we die... on a large enough scale, we are completely insignificant to the universe - does not bring happiness. This world is a walking hypocrisy. A double-edged sword. A conundrum.

Why is it that the smartest people I know have to struggle with depression? Why are the rest too often ignorant and/or naive? Is it fair that I see the so-called "happy" people out there as phony and insincere?

Can it ever be possible for one to be both happy and realistic?

Today's Thought

One more reason I don't believe most people are consistant in their religious beliefs:

In death, their loved ones would be welcomed to Heaven. This is the ultimate goal. Therefore, death would be celebrated. It would be a happy time for all who truly care about the one they lost. Yet, funerals are full of mourning and sadness. Tears flow regularly.

If people truly believed in Heaven, and that their loved ones end up there, they would not see death as such a sad event.

But they do.

And that is because they don't truly believe what they claim to believe.