Today's Epiphany

Someone left another one of those annoying come-to-Jesus-and-be-saved leaflets near my front door yesterday. As I picked it up and asked myself, "What the fuck is this?", I suddenly had an epiphany. It hit me like lightning to a utility pole. And I can't believe I never really considered it before...

Jesus looks disturbingly like Kenny Loggins.

After basking in this thought for a minute or so I came to another realization. He also looks eerily like Greg Evigan (the other dad on that 80's sitcom, My Two Dads).


Afterthoughts:

• If Jesus really is living among us as Kenny Loggins, perhaps his hit "Danger Zone", from the film Top Gun, was written about Hell and the eternal penalty of sinning...
  
  "Out along the edges
  Always where I burn to be
  The further on the edge
  The hotter the intensity
  
  Highway to the Danger Zone
  Gonna take you right into the Danger Zone"

• We all have fathers, whether they are in our lives or not. However, many people of the world consider Jesus to also be their Father... I find it odd that Greg Evigan just happened to play the role of the Second Father in some old sitcom.

Maybe there's much more going on here than we realize...

Broken

How pathetic I am for trying to fix others, when I am the most broken of all...

My Island

I woke with the unusal feeling of contentment this morning... even after only three hours of sleep. Perhaps I shouldn't have, but I still did.

Mere hours later, here on my Friday's lunch break, I am hit with a sudden unexplainable wave of sadness. It envelops me when the thoughts of my love life shoots through my head. When the idea of a career shoots through right behind it. These thoughts beat me to a bloody pulp every single time I see an attractive woman kissing someone else. Someone often much less deserving than me. This sadness makes me want to pierce my heart with the pen I always carry.

Poetic justice perhaps...

Random Thought Of The Day

You will often hear someone say of another, "He doesn't have a violent bone in his body.".

This is simply wrong. We all have violent bones in our bodies. Any one of us has the potential to snap at any moment...

It's only a matter of control.

Spirits In A Material World

As a service to myself I have just calculated the estimated amount of money I spent, in March 2007, on:

• Bar tabs + tips
• Liquor store purchases
• Taxi fare
• Music on the jukebox

This total came to the amount of $566.99. And I didn't include the occasional few bucks I spent on darts, the electronic gaming machines, pull tabs (which I didn't actually play much of anyway), or the fast-food I frequently crave afterwards. Nevertheless, I am glad to finally see this from a more economical point of view. The funny thing is, I actually did make an effort to cut down my bar expenses. But $30 here, $20 there... still adds up more quickly than it seems. And while I do consider most of it to be an investment towards a more fulfilling social life, I am still left with the thoughts of everything I could have done with even half of that money back. It is definitely a wake-up call for myself.

From now on I will be even more conscious about my spending habits. More conscious... and much smarter.

Besides, I have much more important things to invest in...

You Make Me

You are the reason I wake up.

You reveal the strength I've kept hidden in the depths of my imagination.

Without the thought of you, I would wither into nothingness.

You are everything I always wished I could be, and always wished I could have for myself.

You make me want to live to see another day.

And because of that, I owe you the fucking world.



I promise. Someday I will give it to you...

April Fool

Saturday night.

2:00am.

More than anything, I'd love to party and hang out with my friends. Apparently my friends are all too busy to hang out with me. It seems I am actually alone in this life...

Congratulations to me.