Tuesday, May 18, 2004


So it seems you've gone away
and left me here alone
No post-it note of reasoning
No message on my phone

Your things are gone; our room is bare
You took the mattress too
But I don't mind because
I won't be sleeping without you

The soothing voice; familiar touch
are nowhere to be found
My eyes now sting; my knees give out
as I fall to the ground

I wish for life to take me back
to times of happiness
when you and I were ignorant
in juvenile bliss

I cannot bear these thoughts of mine
I'm searching for a knife
Living on without you here…
I do not want this life

A deadly blade now in my hands
I grip it steadily
The tip is poking in my chest
One thrust will set me free

I shove the knife with all my might
The rest is just a blur
A tunnel with angelic light
and thoughts of who we were

I'm sleeping now so silently
with not a breath of air
wherever I may end up now
I know you'll meet me there

A scream is heard as I sit up
With sweat among my brow
I hear you moaning half asleep
..... you are with me now

I can't explain my first nightmare
since I was nine or ten
But this one thing I know for sure
I'll not lose you again

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