Long Lost

I'm going through very tough times right now. I can't stop this stupid depression. I guess most people don't understand what it's like. It's a terrible feeling. You feel worthless and hopeless; like everything you do doesn't matter. My grades in school are disasterous. I know they're important, and I know I should be worried, but I just don't care. How can I when it's the last thing on my mind? Everyday, my head races with thoughts about everything. I also think about the one sure way to get rid of this depression. Although I would never plan or try it. My family and friends mean more to me than my life does. I don't want them to be sad and feel guilty. Besides, I hope that my life will get better sometime soon...