The Speed Of Sound

Sometimes I wear earplugs for hours at a time. It's not always just to block out the noise pollution around us every second of every day. It's not always just my feeble attempt at trying to stay focused on any given task by avoiding distraction. It's not always just my way of going without simple things we often take for granted - like sound - that so many of us never get to experience at all. It's not always just a helpful reminder of how lucky I am to have the ability to hear in the first place. Okay, so maybe I do it for a little bit of all those reasons. But mostly, I just find it peaceful and refreshing. I find it fascinating to experience the only sound in my brain being the rapid electrical signals shooting around within it. It's like meditation for me.

Turn The Page

Well, today I began a new chapter in my life. I finally had my first therapy session. It went pretty well I think, although the first two sessions are mostly going to be just for an assessment; a chance for my therapist and I to get to know each other and begin developing some goals and forging paths to a better place. I've been pretty anxious about this process -- and a little scared too -- but it's nice that it was an easier step than I expected. The only surprise so far is that I ended up talking way more than I realized I did. As it turns out, I'm actually sort of a blabbermouth sometimes.

Today's Helpful Tip

When traveling, always pack an extra pair of underpants. For instance, if you plan to spend six days out and about, be sure to pack at least seven pairs. This way, if you happen to shit yourself at any moment during your trip, you'll have the extra pair ready to go. Just slip the "destroyed" pair off, slide them in the nearest gas station garbage can, smack yourself in the goodies with a bottle full of Lysol wipes, and slide on the fresh, clean pair. Problem solved.

(But if you happen to shit yourself two or more times that week, you're on your own. It might be best at that point to cancel the remainder of your trip and drive straight to some type of clinic.)

Today's Thought

My current goal is to love myself a lot more.

So far, my personal record is six times in one day.

Fantasy / Reality

In fantasy world: I'm so ripped that my good buddy Hugh Jackman frequently calls me up and begs me for workout tips.

In reality: I stand in front of the mirror looking back at an awkward tub of goo... convincing myself that humans were never really supposed to look like this.

Today's Thought

It never ceases to amaze me how beautiful some of the game music out there really is. Some of the greatest symphonic pieces; some of the catchiest loops; some of the most creative composing... all from gaming music. It's a genre gold-mine full of little, shiny nuggets of amazing.

A New Beginning

Really excited! After a couple months of communication issues, and honestly, some procrastination, I finally have my first three appointments scheduled with my new therapist. I'll begin on Sept 1st, and it may quickly turn into a weekly session. I never realized how much of a weight would already be lifted just by solidifying the first appointment(s). Now, I just need to wait for a few weeks until I can go in and talk to her about how much of a tool I am. I'm so looking forward to that! Although it may be a long, grocery-list of issues, I've got to start somewhere. I can't wait to dive into this process.